i love my bestfriend(s) ;)

everyone tells me your a cunt. but i can't help myself. you used to be the person i'd think about after watching romance films and say to myself "he's better than all that". or listen to love songs and realise what they're singing about is true. and if by still loving you that makes me a cunt too, then i don't care.

do you just want me to cut my heart out so you can torture is more easily?

You're being so selfish, i have no idea where i stand and it's not just hurting me it's killing me, do i not have a right to know?

i know i get jealous easy but if you had even loved me you wouldn't have done anything to make me think like that.

ow, i should go have a shower..

Chilling in your underwear if perfection. even if it's a thong, idek.

I need to get really really drunk, really really soon.

"The reason I do not belive in love is because I think it would be a very cruel thing to exist. Yes, i have never been in love but i have had my heart crushed a few times and that was almost unbearable and i would not wish it on anybody. So how much must it hurt to be in love and have you heart broken I wonder? It must be unbearable." how i wish i could warn my past self.

Well you've done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing, we're just one big family
It's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours
Do you want to, come on, scootch over closer dear
And I will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'll be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
so please don't, please don't, please don't.
There's no need to complicate
'cause our time is short
This oh, this oh, this is our fate, I'm yours

Because when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven.

Tu me manques de plus en plus chaque jour et il fait tellement mal, mais je ne peux pas vous dire.

I'm never hungry any more..

I don't want to do anything this weekend, i just want to stay in bed and cry.

When will this crying stop?

Fancy dress = an excuse to pretend for an evening.

I feel happy about 90% of the time. But 10% I feel terrible, nothing anyone can do or say will make me feel happy, I cry unexplainably, I feel as if death is a reasonable escape from the chaotic, fucked up universe we seem to half exsist in. It feel like i donb't live, just survive. I feel I'm a faint outline of a person who persists through life without a meaning or purpose.

That 10% of me needs help but the 90% won't let it, it will constrict the unhappiness untill it's too strong. Then it will raise it's ugy had and destroy me.

Fuck, I need a therapist.

Can anyone ever just be happy?