i waste endless amounts of time hoping the messages i receive are you

i've been having such a though time at the moment and no one seems to care or notice

everything gets better eventually

i'll never be loved

i can't deal with this anymore.

it's bizarre how I feel no guilt in emotionally destroying men and making them cry but when it comes to girl I feel  heartbroken even seeing them hurt by others, and then want to bash in the other's faces

I love being naked

no one knows the real reason i'm so fucked up and i just feel like i cannot and don't want to tell anyone

i am a slut. but everyone instantly judges me because of it. i'm allowed to be one. i've been hurt so much no one can imagine. my heart will be broken for the remainder of my life. i will continue to cry every night. i hate my life, i'm a mess and i just need someone

i wish i had the balls to kill myself

i love you with every respiring cell in my body

i want you so much, but i hate your guts

i'm not mad, i'm simply a teenager

i only smoke weed because i'm broken. i'm feel no longer human, i'm suffering every minute i'm awake. i don't smoke up to enjoy myself, i smoke to stop feeling miserable. i hate what i've become. i feel guilty every second i'm breathing. smoking makes me feel alive for a while, i forget the constant misery that follows me. i disappoint everyone, but i just don't feel like i need to improve my life. i am happy. i have a house, a family, amazing friends and i enjoy life. fuck i sound like a schizophrenic. 

i would be mental without bud

i only cry because i've forgotten how it felt to be loved by you

sometimes all i genuinely care about is sex

i always feel nothing, i'm have no emotions, i  am numb

at least when i sleep with people it's because i want to and not because i've been lulled into the false promise of a relationship or emotional attachment

i want to watch films with you, cuddle and fuck you for eternity

what is the huge obsession with my sister?

i've been waiting for someone like you

the fact you know i still exist makes me happier than anything ever could

watching you love her is crushing me

i've been falling since the day you left

i close my eyes when you speak so i can imagine it's just the two of us again

i never gave myself time to heal and now the wound is wide open

i  miss you 

you were my heaven

come back to me, hold me tightly in your arms and say it'll be ok

i want to find someone to fix me

chloe asked me what the best moment of my life was, my reply made me cry so much

cutting used to keep me relaxed, i've become so stressed since i stopped

and the worst part is, you're not going to apologise

i love holding hands, intertwining your fingers between someones you trusts hand is truly magical. It is such an innocent act but the feeling that comes with it feels as if you have the entire world between your finger tips. You are connected just by the most simple of gestures and touches. this is not romantic, simply a statement about friendship

and still he dream he'll come to me, so we can live the years together. but there are dreams that cannot be, and there are storms we cannot weather. 

once again, my mum's being a bitch

i hate you. you ruined me. i will never feel the security i once felt with you again. you hurt me more than anyone has ever had the opportunity to. and i gave you the power to do so, i will never let such a horror happen again. i'm not strong enough to survive it.

i went crazy when i was with you, that'll never happen again. love's not supposed to do that, you made me go mad

if you want to be single, be single. if you want to be with someone, commit to them. simple as fuck.

you made me the way i am, and you don't even like your own creation

i could have fallen in love with you, but i didn't and now it's time to move on

i don't deserve this 

i can honestly admit the scars you gave me are still there and it's taking a while for them to heal

if love existed, i could easily fall deeply and madly in love with you. i could stay in your arms all day, i could be faithful, i could be with only you and that would be enough. i could be happy and laugh at all your terrible jokes, smile at all your compliments. i could happily win over your family and treat them as my own. i could let you be the last thing i think about before i fall asleep. i could, but love doesn't exist, so i just see you as a cock to sit on.

the pleasure i get from making other people miserable is ridiculous, i must be the devil

i'm giving you my heart, don't break it ok?

i'm not happy, all i want is for someone i care about who cares about me to hold me in their arms, preferably this person is a hench male model not to be too specific 

not having any more of this

i get really emotional anytime i see someone that's been cheated on because i know how they feel and it makes me want to cry that human can hurt each other so much

i might not be hurt, but i'm alone

i spend all this time avoiding getting hurt, but when i finally do it hurts so much more than if i just accepted that pain comes hand in hand with living

well, that hurt